Today was my first time in tampine's IKEA, it was really big and stocked with shelves of home

appliances touching the ceiling. The place was wonderful, well lighted, it didn't smell like fresh
plastic nor sawed wood rather it smelt just like flowers. We shared salmon, meatballs and

deserts for dinner (: Then we decided to walk around to have a better look around IKEA.
I was drawn by the colors of red, white, gold and silver that it didn't take long for me to
realize Christmas was on its way. I examined christmas lights and chandeliers, gift wrapping
paper and printed napkins, everything looks beautiful. & with IKEA's fabulous lighting,
everything Does look beautiful. (Or maybe I find everything to be art. haha)
The most astounding thing was, when I saw all these beautiful things displayed in white metal
containers and shelves, I thought of you. I don't know what it justifies but it just does.

Shame on me for even thinking of buying you a gift, but my mind seems to be Way ahead most
of the time. I started feeling happy and sad all at the same time, it wasn't all that confusing
but exhausting repeating this cycle again. I held onto a gift wrap paper and said:
"Can you believe this, one year has gone by so fast."
My friends smiled & looked forward to 2012, but I felt otherwise. Maybe to me,

I feel that when this year ends, next year would be entirely different. Next year, I wouldn't

know if I still have a place somewhere in your heart/mind, it doesn't matter where actually.
But it feels you've quite forgotten I am still here,just... waiting around.
I don't really know what for, but I just am. I am here, always.