I made several improvements today:

1. My attention in class
2. My heart
3. My public speaking

How?

1. I managed to write down notes that DID NOT appear on the powerpoint.

2. I don't beat as fast anymore, the nervousness has gone, my cheeks don't flush.

3. I won the debate against my lecturers criticisms and comments.

However:
I felt disappointed in myself. Wondering how was I able to Allow myself to be treated this

way by someone else. How I've never stopped it once despite mentally protesting against it

& How pathetic I seem to be pleasing others before myself all the time.

Conclusion-

I need to rest now, my mind needs it as well. goodnight