omg I don't know what to do, you're everywhere now. This is the only space left I could at least regain some discretion. I just feel worse whenever you talk to me, I mean, I get happy then just feel like crap after you say your goodbyes. I feel like its too late to do anything too. I feel someone is about to replace me, or at least divine your full attention to. I get jealous and jittery. Maybe my sensitivity is on a high or I don't know. So much of my judgement seems clouded and meek. I can't seem to trust myself either. There is just so much self doubt ready to burst. I get shy and quiet, I don't say what I want to, I don't show what I want to. I badly want to be who I am around you. I do. God, I just sound like a total mess.